WHEN YOUR LIFE SUCKS: Who's to be BLAMED?

To be alive. To pursue a positive and satisfying existence. To enjoy the journey... This is Life! Have you ever wondered that you've been always caught and tangled in life's misery? LIFE SUCKS?

I my self also been in that situation, feeling down and troubled. Everything in me is very heavy and tend to blame it with other people. Yes, you got it right, I ended up blaming other people because of my misery. Sometimes there are situations that won't happened before if you won't be able to meet these people or get into situations wherein you have been involved by the same persons. I always blame people around me.

In reality, in every action we have or committed, nobody is forcing us to do so. Each and everyone of us have its own freewill. We decide for our selves and choose our own option for our own life. If somebody is forcing you to do so, you still have that option, not to follow or follow it. Let us put in this situation, due to poverty some people can't go to school for EDUCATION, but there are living proofs that some people in poverty overcome that. If they succeeded in that why can't you do it? Sometimes we just contented of what we have and never tried to strive more. Actually we are capable of doing it. We just feel weak and there goes this so called self pity, resulting to blame people around us. Blaming our own parents or friends in failures we have. Have we realized that this is our own life to govern and the sole responsible with it is yourself?

Its time to change that thing, to add up also my friends, if we stumble or fall down in our lives , that makes us a better individual. Though life is harsh and that we need to feel pain in order to learn lessons. Its a way for us to be more prepared in handling future situations which are more worst that what we encountered today. Accept to your self that you fail and change everything that leads you to that situation and certainly move on with life. Just like what MOTHER THERESA said "LIFE IS A PROMISE; FULFILL IT".

RE-EVALUATING LIFE: A process of Focusing on Things and Life's Direction.

Another day in my life... time running slow.. I really don't know why... I just feel it. I'm back again in this situation feeling so down and alone.... Again I feel so empty that I'm worthless and don't know what to do... I'm there but nobody see me... that even my own self can't even feel me.

I feel so numb... that even writing this blog... I don't know what to say... I just cant understand what I feel... I keep on asking my self but definitely I have all the answers in my mind... I have this longing and aspirations that I really don't know... Which and where my life will lead me....I keep on breathing, that even this thing feel so hard to do... Whatever life's purpose to me, I don't know what exactly will be in the future... a lot of anticipation... a lot of frustrations... a lot of mind bugling that affect me in all aspect of being an individual.. I feel so hopeless sometimes...

I always ended up to that dream of mine to live a simple life... to live my life in the the most remote place on earth with nobody knows me and life I spend will be so calm and simple.... Living with a tribe or indigenous people adopting their way of living and protect them from any culture and modern intrusion... I always wanted to live my life that way... I can see the horizon.. I peaceful and serene community living harmoniously... living in a low paced lifestyle enjoying every moment with kids, with community works and helping other people...

The time when I leave my family before, that was one of my proud moments for me... supporting my self and living independently... able to be responsible enough with my self but I ended up.. caught up drowned with social deviance and people's deceitfulness and pretensions... it's a disturbance living in denial finding my self... Now I'm here... alone and wanted to escape from this situation....to scream on the top of my lungs... to fight not just on my self alone but for others... i always wanted to help others. I guess it's just re-evaluating LIFE to attain better direction and track.

I guess there is nothing wrong asking things even if you already know the answers, maybe its just my way of analyzing things...at the same time reminding our selves...I want to live back through time when the world is not like this... but i guess it's impossible... anyway I would still be able to live a life I really wanted...

Finding HAPPINESS is just easy, its just a MATTER OF CHOICE.

"HAPPINESS IS LIBERTY FROM EVERYTHING THAT MAKES US UNHAPPY."

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. I believe that all men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out, but I guess what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter.

I am a little bit happy to recourse a new beginning with my family. As to every one's information that I went away from my family and seek for my life or should I say independence. I am back for now with a lot of reasons. Wrong decisions in the past is over and believed to me lessons I learned. There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.I guess we are here because of people around us... In that way we can be happy. Why not let people differ about their answers to the great mysteries of the Universe? Let each seek one's own way to the highest, to one's own sense of supreme loyalty in life, one's ideal of life. Let each philosophy, each world-view bring forth its truth and beauty to a larger perspective, that people may grow in vision, stature and dedication. Let us seek answers within ourselves... from deep within. We deserve to be happy and its up to us to feel it and experience it, it depends to our own choice. The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature. In my case, I forgot the people who love me, my family, and now I know what is lacking to my life. I apprecaite more, especially people who will always there no matter what and I feel better when I share my views, my dreams with them. I realized that LIFE isn't about finding your own soul alone but finding people who will treasure you and stood by you forever. Life is meaningless by living ALONE. The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

(HERES A SONG FROM ALEXIA IN TITLED HAPPY)