WHEN YOUR LIFE SUCKS: Who's to be BLAMED?

To be alive. To pursue a positive and satisfying existence. To enjoy the journey... This is Life! Have you ever wondered that you've been always caught and tangled in life's misery? LIFE SUCKS?

I my self also been in that situation, feeling down and troubled. Everything in me is very heavy and tend to blame it with other people. Yes, you got it right, I ended up blaming other people because of my misery. Sometimes there are situations that won't happened before if you won't be able to meet these people or get into situations wherein you have been involved by the same persons. I always blame people around me.

In reality, in every action we have or committed, nobody is forcing us to do so. Each and everyone of us have its own freewill. We decide for our selves and choose our own option for our own life. If somebody is forcing you to do so, you still have that option, not to follow or follow it. Let us put in this situation, due to poverty some people can't go to school for EDUCATION, but there are living proofs that some people in poverty overcome that. If they succeeded in that why can't you do it? Sometimes we just contented of what we have and never tried to strive more. Actually we are capable of doing it. We just feel weak and there goes this so called self pity, resulting to blame people around us. Blaming our own parents or friends in failures we have. Have we realized that this is our own life to govern and the sole responsible with it is yourself?

Its time to change that thing, to add up also my friends, if we stumble or fall down in our lives , that makes us a better individual. Though life is harsh and that we need to feel pain in order to learn lessons. Its a way for us to be more prepared in handling future situations which are more worst that what we encountered today. Accept to your self that you fail and change everything that leads you to that situation and certainly move on with life. Just like what MOTHER THERESA said "LIFE IS A PROMISE; FULFILL IT".

WHAT I AM THINKING? It's my LIFE AFTER ALL!!!

I'm just a regular person not that famous nor not that controversial to be talked about. I'm just living a normal regular life just like you. Struggling on life and surviving all things that thing that I faces in everyday encounter. A lot of mistakes that I have made in my life.. regretting yes but I just need to continue life and try to learn from all of mistakes I have done.

Everyday I always read my horoscope online to know and somehow pattern my daily actions from it. I usually have this common thing in my daily horoscope or maybe just plainly a coincidence. I'm a kind of person who not easily be convinced by anybody but look at me...kinda believing in the horoscope but not necessarily or totally believing in it. I'm always indecisive with my actions and decisions of my life, now I depend on this stupid stuff. If I need to do this or to dothat I always see to it that I will actually do this after all there will be nothing loose from me. Today my horoscope read like this...

So then somehow I follow it and do some stuff in accordance to what it says. Then I just realize that this stuff makes me stick to what it say at then do it. What if I will make a decision in my life and try to believe from it. You know, I will follow it and do the same thing. I guess I can do it... after all I can with what the horoscope says right. It's just how should I focused on doing it. It's my life over and not just some crap and antics from the horoscope. I bet, I can! He!he!he!...Why not set standards to follow or should I say goals in your life and try to achieve it. In this way instead of some stupid things try to control over you, it is you who will govern it. Generally, its you and only you who will satisfy your self whether you chooses this way or that way. Setting goal will make you set standards and decide on you priorities in life. It's the same thing when other people tried to intervene in your life. Don't let other people choose anything for you. They can guide you but again it's up to to to decide. After all, all this things that will happened to you will you to be experienced, its you to be hurt, to feel joy and be satisfied. People are just your profound extension of your emotion to share with.

I guess what I realize here, is don't let other people control over your life nor any stuff telling you, for you will still be responsible with your own life. You decide if you want to be happy or not and people around you are instruments, guide to attain it. No man is an island and I believe it that's why you then share what you feel and whats in you whether your a success or failure. It doesn't matter at all. People can say whatever they want to say to you, but in the end of the day you're there alone and feel so bad about it. Time to stop that agony, It's time for you to learn things and fight back fairly. It's better to fight without stepping in others people feet. It's your life anyway and better not waste it. You take your own path to follow. YEAH! IT'S MY LIFE ... GOVERN YOUR OWN LIFE....

RE-EVALUATING LIFE: A process of Focusing on Things and Life's Direction.

Another day in my life... time running slow.. I really don't know why... I just feel it. I'm back again in this situation feeling so down and alone.... Again I feel so empty that I'm worthless and don't know what to do... I'm there but nobody see me... that even my own self can't even feel me.

I feel so numb... that even writing this blog... I don't know what to say... I just cant understand what I feel... I keep on asking my self but definitely I have all the answers in my mind... I have this longing and aspirations that I really don't know... Which and where my life will lead me....I keep on breathing, that even this thing feel so hard to do... Whatever life's purpose to me, I don't know what exactly will be in the future... a lot of anticipation... a lot of frustrations... a lot of mind bugling that affect me in all aspect of being an individual.. I feel so hopeless sometimes...

I always ended up to that dream of mine to live a simple life... to live my life in the the most remote place on earth with nobody knows me and life I spend will be so calm and simple.... Living with a tribe or indigenous people adopting their way of living and protect them from any culture and modern intrusion... I always wanted to live my life that way... I can see the horizon.. I peaceful and serene community living harmoniously... living in a low paced lifestyle enjoying every moment with kids, with community works and helping other people...

The time when I leave my family before, that was one of my proud moments for me... supporting my self and living independently... able to be responsible enough with my self but I ended up.. caught up drowned with social deviance and people's deceitfulness and pretensions... it's a disturbance living in denial finding my self... Now I'm here... alone and wanted to escape from this situation....to scream on the top of my lungs... to fight not just on my self alone but for others... i always wanted to help others. I guess it's just re-evaluating LIFE to attain better direction and track.

I guess there is nothing wrong asking things even if you already know the answers, maybe its just my way of analyzing things...at the same time reminding our selves...I want to live back through time when the world is not like this... but i guess it's impossible... anyway I would still be able to live a life I really wanted...